There should'nt be conflict.

I love you.

I'll never love another the same way.

I shouldnt have to choose between you and my sister, simply because she's my sister.

I know she's be a pain but she's my sister.

And yet, strangely, I know I'd choose you if I had to.

She has my parents to fall back on.

I dont.

You're all I have.

You're all I want.

Oh God. I just came back from camp and it was really tiring.

Here's the list of activities.

Building a raft.

Jungle tracking.

Morning walk. [ 2 km ]

Repairing broken bridges.

Going through an obstacle course, army style.

Using the raft to cross the swimming pool.

Walking uphill again to complete the 4th task, the booby traps.

It was really tiring man.

I'm sore all over.

My legs are bruised like hell cos I fell from the hanging tyres in the obstacle course.

I had numbing spray on my arm coz I pulled a muscle.

Got bitten by a leech.

Had a bloody goose chase me.

After everything, it was a real experience.

Thank God I'm alive.

.a.m.y.

apologies.

I am extremely sorry about this abandoned blog. I didnt mean to forget about it but in with all the recent happenings, this just slipped my mind.



SO. New updates.

1. I'm a little thinner than I was. Cheekbones are jutting out. Mums screaming at me to eat.

2. This Christmas, God heard my prayers and granted me love. Enough said.

3. I have officially stopped growing. Dont know why.

4. I'm very, very stressed out. Even the school hols doesnt feel like THE HOLS. Extreme amounts of homework, up and coming exams, seminars to attend, tuition classes, football matches and etc, etc. I'll be attending a 10 hour seminar in UM on sunday. I cant sit still for an hour, dont know how the hell I'm gonna get through this. There's an education fair in mid valley tommorow. I think I'll go. Maybe. But its gonna be crowded. I dont like crowded places.

5. I have finally decided that medical/physiotherapy will be what I'm heading for. But I'll still write. Probably in columns or something. Dont wanna let my grandma know that she won. She wants me to be a doctor. I told her I'll never be one.

6. My grandpa went through his second operation to remove his cancer growth successfully.

7. My mum will be admitted soon to get steroids jabbed into her back to widen the gap between the nerves coz she's suffering from slipped disc and her L4, L5 is the affected area.

8. These past two fridays, both on the 13th, have been miserable. I fell on my ass in nirvana, which is in the centre of bangsar on the 13th of feb. Today, I pissed my mum off, and she hasnt come back from the drive she took to calm herself.

9.This increasing pressure is getting to my head. I know I can handle a certain amount, but what if it gets too much. my parents are in no way pushing me at all. All they said was, 'make us proud'. Err, ok. Once I figure out how.

10. I have finally learnt how to play man bai on the guitar. Finally.


Thats it, I guess. Dont know what else to say. Damn tired. Didnt sleep this whole week.

Oh yeah, I love John Legend's new song, 'everybody knows'. Damn nice. Been singing it all week.

Ciao, for now.