Anger management.

Dear Superman,


I smile. I laugh. But on the inside I am dying.


When will I realise that being superficial is only a short term solution to my troubles.



Hey Betty, you are beautiful.
Just felt like typing that.
The song is in my head.





I made history in school today. I scored the lowest marks in add maths. How do you think my mom is gonna react huh?...Shes gonna say, ' Is it possible, no seriously, can anyone be this stupid?'...And then I'm gonna lose my temper and stamp my feet and run somewhere. And this is where my guitar comes in. I release my anger on my guitar so much so it has scratches and marks everywhere. This is why I need a new guitar for Christmas.


:] Please?




Talking about temper tantrums, I lost my temper badly yesterday. Quite a long time since I did. I'm the kind of person who takes whatever you throw at me. Insults, criticism, and even an occasional punch or kick from my sister. But once you piss me off, and taunt me about it, you're dead. Just like that I flare up and either I start throwing things or I hit you. And hit you hard.



So yesterday, my sister decided to piss me off. She had tuition at 8 o'clock but she wanted to watch the devil wears prada for the gazillionth time. I told her no and dragged her to the table. So she had her tuition and I watched tv. When she finished at like 9.25, she came and said she wanted to watch. I said no coz I was in the middle of watching the amazing race asia. Then she started the waterworks. She was cring so loudly on the other couch that I got irritated and told her to shut the hell up. She didnt and went to call my parents to complain. They were out, mind you. When they told her to let me watch till the end, she slammed the phone down and started banging the phone on the table. That again irritated me slightly. I told her to shut up again. Then when it was a commercial break, I went to get my pillow from the room and she idiotically sat on the couch and started watching. I decided I was gonna let her watch anyway, so I didnt say a thing. Then she pisses me off by kicking me when I went to take my pillow from the couch. She thought I was going for the remote. Then she said, you deserve it moron. And kicks me again. [This is where I lose my temper.] I calmly put my pillows down, [they're innocent pillows], and then I give her a sharp whack across her leg. She remains defiant and pulls a face. I clench her jaw....


To be continued.

Keep them safe.

Dear blog,

Do you think I should sit for the rest of my finals?

Blog - Yes.
Amy - But I dont feel like sitting for it.
Blog - Then dont.
Amy - Do you think my 'rents will become hysterical and swing a chair at me if I dont?
Blog - Yes.
Amy - Then what do I do?
Blog - Duck.
Amy - Thanks for the advice.
Blog - Sure.



Blogging when you've taken 'stupid pills' just might not work out very well.


I learnt the hard way.


Ok. I'm gonna talk about my finals.

So you see, my school, the extremely smart school, decided to break the finals into two phases. Phase one started on the 13th of October and ended on the 17th of October. The exams will resume two weeks later which is when phase 2 starts. It will go on from the 3rd of November till the last day of school. Sucky, isnt it?..


Among the papers we sat for in Phase 1 were Chem 3, Moral, English, BM, EST, Maths and Add freaking maths.

Among all those papers, I only concentrated on 4, Chem, BI, BM, Est. The rest shall rest in peace. It is so dead. So dead.



But after all thats said and done, WHO GIVES A DAMN?....I'm gonna be in the same class, same classmates. Like I said, who cares?...


I do not know where this part of me has emerged from but all I know is I am feeling extremely rebellious these days. Trouble is a part of me. Lets pray it doesnt extend till next year.

Fun Activities next year :

1] SPM. [Bluek]
2] Driver's licence. [Liberation, finally]
3] PLKN. [I dont wanna go!]
4] 17th B'day. [Age is catching up with me] [Botox, please]
5] Graduation. [I dont wanna leave high school]
6] Prom night. [Marks the end of SPM, hurrah]
7] Christmas. [Prezzies!] [I want one from every reader]



I cant believe how fast this year has gone past. Time really flew at turbo speed. I cant imagine life without seeing the besties everyday. It's crazily depressing but yet intriguing as well. I ponder my future. Should I stay? Should I leave? Will I be homesick? Will I regret staying?..



I tell you what. I'll leave it up to the one who knows best. Yes, God, You know who I'm referring to.



After all, He's got me here and I'm still in one piece. Just keep going, God. You're doing great.

And I pray you'll be alright, my little princess.

No one will touch you when I'm around.

I promise you that.

No one.




I pray that everyone around me will still be around even when I'm gone.

I dont think I'll be able to cope with anyone leaving me again.

Please, dont go.

Keep them safe in your sight, Lord.




These are my prayers. Answer them, I pray.

I treasure each and everyone of you in my heart. Yes, you too.

I'll never forget you.






My heart is pounding so hard that it deafens me.


Amy. The Actress, in her own life.

16.

Voila. I'm back. Its been a while.

So yeah. I had my sweet sixteenth party the other day and since this was a family function the guest list was pretty long. The attire for the night was either a football jersey or floral shorts. I was really, really happy coz everyone turned up according to the theme. I didnt think they would. It was so awesome. Except for the part when the MU fans who wore their jersey started singing 'Glory, glory Man United'. That sucked. Ah well, Chelsea's top so, no worries. And yeah, here are a few of the pics taken.











My cake. Nice, huh?
















Me and my youngest uncle.

Me, smashing cake into my sisters face. Fun!