Father's day.

This father's day was pretty uneventful actually. My cousins came around and all the father's cut up and destroyed the beautiful chocolate mud cake from secret recipe. I was actually pretty pensieve throughtout this whole father's day. I think it had something to do with the face that I was recovering from a hurting heart. It was caused by my dad. His godson gave him a bouquet of flowers and I didnt get him anything. but thats only coz we were so busy this whole weekend. I actually wanted to take him out to dinner but he said that this weekend was too crammed. But thats not my main point. The reason I'm hurting is coz my dad turned around and said to me, I quote, 'Even my godson can get me something, but my daughters?'...This hurt me so bad. I didnt talk to him the entire journey home from church. How could he say that?...he was the one who refused a gift and said we didnt have to get him anything, but when we want to do something, he refuses and we get the blame. This hurts, man.

As I run my fingers through your hair, I am reminded of what used to be.






Peace,
Amy.

Emoed up.

Just let me hold you while we are falling apart.



Yesterday and today have gone past in a blink. The results that came back were as expected, horrifying. But what truly pissed me off was HER comment about my absence in class. Hell. I've been attending all her classes ever since she made that snide comment about me not being in her class. How could she?..She actually expressed her surprise concerning me presence. What the hell was that all about?....So so pissing off. And her stupid lectures were obviously aimed at me.


Some of its just transcendental. Some of its just really dumb.


Enough about HER.





But I, I love it when you read to me. And you, you can read me anything.



The hols were kinda subdued coz I didnt go out much. Except to Bangsar. Everyday. I dont really wanna talk about it.



The book of love has music in it. In fact, thats where music comes from.


I have to make a really huge decision. Its pretty much eating me from the inside. But I cannot take it anymore. Its UBS. I am supposed to go for my Kursus Peningkatan this weekend but I really cant coz I've got a 21st birthday and also an engagement to attend. Not only that, I will also be missing my tuition at Subash which is really important. I have to do it. I have to quit. I know that some people will be really disappointed that I have given up so easily on UBS but there are underlying issues that have yet to be resolved. I dont think it will ever be. But to those whom I have let down, I am sorry but maybe this isnt what I was made for. This decision was made and taken action against with painstaking thinking. Maybe it isnt the best solution but, hey, who knows whats right and wrong. I'm sorry.




The book of love is long and boring. And written very long ago. Its full of flowers and heart shaped boxes and things we're all too young to see.





And I, I love it when you give me things. And you, you are to give me wedding rings.





Till we meet again.

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